My emotions crashing down on me.

Feeling OVERWHELMED today,

Maybe it's because my kids don't have school today and tomorrow due to parent teacher conferences. Maybe it's because I am an emotional wreck because of my pregnancy hormones. Maybe it is the struggle I am having getting a hold of Amber's pediatrician to get the referral i need to set up the appointment for her much needed evaluation with the Occ. Therapist. Maybe it's trying to keep my children out of the candy left over from halloween. Maybe it's the constant nagging for a playdate after my kids just spent half the day with the neighbor kids. Or perhaps it that my house can be clean one minute and a disaster the moment i turn around. Maybe it's trying to figure out how to lessen the meltdown moments i have with Amber. Or the fact that I don't get to spend enough time with children A and C because child B is more demanding and what am i thinking to add child D to the situation. Maybe it's the pressure to find out what gender child D is going to be. And the entire sick feeling I am experiencing because of Child D inside my body. Really it's probably all of the above and even more that I can't even express right now. Either I don't have the time or the there is so much going on inside my brain that I can't seperate or focus on any or all of them in the short time I have tor write this post before starting dinner. Here is my real moment of craziness and yes I have crazy days and days where my imperfections follow me until i break. It's all normal right? It's what being a mom is right? But at least I've seen miracles in my life and know that I have my own special mission and it uplifts me enough to think Maybe next year I will go as Supermom for halloween. Yep I am truly CRAZY!!

grocery shopping this week at Albertsons

Okay so I haven't shown much coupons shopping as of late but here goes-w/out pictures even.

Transaction #1
Chex cereal bars $2.49 used 1 free chex bar coupon
3 Lipton Rice side dinners .99 each used $1/3
2 Prog chicken broth $1.49 used 2 $.50/1 coupons
3 betty crocker frosting tubs $1.69 each used 3 $.50/1
2 Chex mix $1.69 each used 2 $.50/1
2 Yoplus delights $2.49 used 2 $1/1
2 Yoplus yogurts $2/49 each used 2 $1/1
2 Pillsburgy Toaster Strudels $2.99 used 2 $1/1

Total OOP after coupons was $21.81 + recieved $15 catalina

Transaction #2

5 Hamburger Helper meals $1.69 each used 1 $1/2 and 1 $.75/3
3 Lipton soup mixes ( no coupons) .99 each
6 progresso soups $1.69 each used 2 $1.10/3
2 Betty crocker cookie mixes $1.69 each used 2 $.40/1
2 Klondike Icecream bars $2.99 each used 2 $1/1

Total OOP after coupons and using $15 catalina $9.17 + received another $15 catalina.

So together I spent $15.98 on 34 items factoring in the catalinas = $.47 cents each item.

SYTYCD Shocking!!

So i was totally surprised that they choreographed the kiss in Ashleigh and Jakobs waltz routine-can I say that was some pretty good acting and, like everyone else, I wonder what Ryan thought about that. Now being on a dance team before while being married and dancing with other guys myself I can say i always viewed things with total professionalism..but that is a line i wouldn't dream of crossing. I am not sure how married actors do it-no wonder why there are so many break ups in hollywood. With that now said I have to say-it was one of my favorite dances of the night along with the tango that Ashleigh's husband Ryan danced to with Ellinore. So Ballroom dances stole the spotlight for me last night. And Legacy contemporary with Kathryn absolutely blew me away-he is really growing and becoming a better dancer. I guess Stacy is the choreographer that is replacing Mia Michaels and so far I'm not dissapointed.

So here is how the dances ranked for me last night:
#1. Ryan and Ellinore Tango-so precise even with the skirt tangle.
#2. Legacy and Kathryn Contemporary -finally a cont piece that moved me!!
#3 Ashleigh and jakob's Waltz-so pretty and lovely
#4 Mollee and Nathan's Bollywood routine-so cool
#5 Noelle and Russel's Hip hop
#6 Karen and Kevin's- Hip HOp-the dancing was good-parts of the choreography i didnt' like.
#7 Bianca and Victor's Broadway-I really enjoyed this one
#8 Pauline and Peter Jazz-liked it but thought it was a little busy at some points
#9 Channing and Phillip Samba-stumbling here and there-channing definitely tried .

I think they picked the right guy to go home and only felt that Biance went home because the other girls show better potential to perform more variety of dance genres.

Halloween Preview!!! Thrifty costumes this year!

Here are some pictures of the girls in their halloween costumes this year!! I was so lucky to have found the tiger costume at a thrift store for $4 and a friend loaned us the cow costume indefinitely (so nice of them). We had the cinderella costume hanging around from a past halloween -but I have to say Brooke does it better justice than the previous wearer. All in all I was so lucky to only have had to spend $6 total including the face paint for my girls' costumes this year combined with a little bit of sewing to fix/alter whatever was needed!! And I already had everything to make my costume-just needed to sew it together. Turned out pretty cute! Daddy's not yet into the whole "dress" up thing---just yet. Sorry the pictures are grainy-I guess my mem. card was just about full and battery was dying-so hopefully tonight I will get some better ones. But I wanted to show you anyway!Girls playing in the leaves!!! WE LOVE THE FALL!!

SO you think you can dance is back!!

Okay so my favorite dances from last nights performances were:
Jakob and Ashleigh's Broadway -perfect-nothing bad about this routine, it had everything from both dancers.
Mollee and Nathan's Disco-this disco was so fun and so fast-i can't believe how much energy they had throughout the entire thing. Awesome.
Legacy and Kathryn's Hip Hop totally expected legacy to do awesome but Kathryn killed it-she did such a great job hitting everything so hard.

Hats off to:

Karen and Kevin-She danced circles around him and you couldn't watch anyone but her. Partly this wasn't his fault. I would have put him in a lighter costume as black on black-seriously he is hidden anyway. ( costume choice/lighting/background is important) But he still could have done more to match her.

Ryan and Ellenore Contemporary- I expected more out of Ellenore-performance quality was there and it was such a weird piece that i liked it.

Bianca and Victor cotemporary-It was nice -could have been brilliant if she had better technique like Adam commented on. Liked it, but wasn't blown away.

Just okay for me:

Russel and Noelles fox trot-mainly because he danced with sub Melanie (wish she was wearing a different dress color-too much black in entire routine/background would have like to see it broken up a bit.) I do think he did okay.

Brandon and Pauline: I really think it was such easy choreography and so there really wasn't room for them to impress anyone with this routine-not necessarily their fault, since he only had a few days to learn it. Was forgettable.

Channing and Phillip Jive- I think she did a descent job with her performance-both could have been sharper-If he performed more this would have been really cute.

Arianna and Peters' hip hop-just boring

I think the judged picked the right two to go home-it's who i think america would have voted off.

Biggest dissapointments:
Billy Bell out of the competition.

Yeah 4 months along!!!

Okay so I thought I would let you know that with my system that I am using-I am now able to eat just about anything now. I am super excited about that. I am really hoping that by next month i can completely eliminate unisom and maybe the sea bands. Just wanted to let you all know i have am back among the living again!

Better News

Joe took Amber in this morning and the Dr. said she has an ear infection and a sinus infection...so she is on two different antibiotics and I am hoping that truly that is all she has. So YEAH!